Monday, July 7, 2008
The Yellow Wall Paper
Only in America can a hospital look like a luxury hotel but then for the price they charged me I could have a luxury suite with full food service! I had a miscarriage. I wasn't even aware I was pregnant! How stupid can you be? I did gain a little weight but I thought by tummy problems were due to the heat for because of an auto - accident I had when I was 19 I was told I could never have children. I was on the pill to regulate my cycles but this year my doctor took me off it saying the hormones could cause cancer. So after my yoga class I thought I started my cycle was was bleeding real hard. I had to change my Tampon and pad every half hour. I was taken to the hospital and I was told I was having a miscarriage! Now I have Post Pardon Depression. I thought you had to have a baby to get Post Pardon Depression but my doctors say due to the hormones changes in my body this is not rare. I had no idea how intense depression can be. I don't weep I just curl up in a ball and want to die. Now I understand what that poor woman went through in the short story "The Yellow Wall Paper" where she goes completely mad! If you haven't read it check it out it's by Charlotte Perkins Gilman. In her days such matters were unknown.